Memorials and funerals

Memorials and funerals we attend are always emotional  
events, always painful to photograph in some shape or form. Like last  
Friday before Grandview High School's homecoming football game when a  
memorial to fallen soldier Matt Emerson reminded everyone that sometimes  
people don't come home from wars. Emerson died in the service of his  
country, and his family, friends and community members honored his  
memory on the field where only a few years before he had played  
football.
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It's always difficult to remain emotionally detached in these  
situations, but that's what we have to do. We have to do our jobs and  
create photos that document the event and tell our readers the story.  
We have to point our cameras on people who might not be too  
enthusiastic about being photographed at that moment, and take our  
photos. We have to walk up to them afterward and ask them their  
names. It really stinks. It's especially bad when the person being  
honored seemed to me to be the kind of person I wish I had known, his  
family the type of people I would like as neighbors. But I didn't let  
myself get caught up in the moment, even when my gut turned as the  
announcer called out Emerson's number and name, but instead of him  
running onto the field, cheerleaders released balloons that I watched  
float up, out, then beyond the stadium lights.

Afterward, as I walked back to the car, a woman thanked me for being  
at the event. I told her, "You're very welcome," when really I felt  
like it was I who should be thanking her and all the people there for  
letting me attend. I put my gear in the back seat, turned and waved  
back at her and I could feel it welling up. When I climbed in and  
closed the door I realized what I already knew: I can only hold it  
together for so long. It was a long ride back to the office.